my "mang chang" handyplast

are all breastfed babies very attached to their mothers? ziyi wasn't like that until lately. she has been very attached to me for the past few days. she refused daddy carrying, feeding, and changing her. even holding her stuff is also forbidden. everything mummy has to do for her. haihh....where to find so much time to do everything?

she drove me up the wall last nite. first, i cooked her steamed egg with mushroom and brinjal, served with brown rice and ginseng soup. she didnt want to eat..kept spitting out her food. i tried giving her cerelac cereal later and she spitted too. so i let her be, didnt want to give her milk at all.

brought her upstairs to change her diaper. refused again! she is such an impatient, stubborn and determined child. she wanted me to play her barnyard blocks with her. when she couldn't unzip the bag to take her blocks out, she fussed, becoming very "mang chang".. that made my blood boiled again. i screamed at her and spanked her butt, like 3-4 times... real hard ones till it was all red. of course she wailed soo loud but i dont think it's because of the pain. coz she continued playing with her barnyard... see, how determined she is!

i was sitting behind her for few minutes, and started feeling guilty. so i told her "come, mummy sayang".. she came to hug and tap my back...aiyooo...that melted my heart even more. i was very very guilty for spanking her. *sob sob*

seriously i don't know how to handle her, especially when it comes to her temperament. it doesn't help when i myself is a very impatient and mang chang person.

she likes to sleep on the floor with her fav blankey nowadays.

it's getting difficult to tie or clip her hair now.